A Moment

He asks me to lay down with him, he doesn't normally, so I do.
He puts his head in my hand and reaches to hold the other.
I know its been a hard day.
He finally falls asleep with his hand pressed to his temple as if deep in thought.
He is warm, he is cuddly, he is mine.
I love him so.
I stay long after he has fallen asleep.

There is a moment, even in the longest and the worst of bedtimes. The trick is to notice it.

What's On your Table?

I'm always running out of inspiration for meals. I like organic and free range when possible (although I did eat a bag of chips for breakfast today so clearly it's not a deal breaker), I love things that you can make in big batches and freeze. I hate to put away dishes, the simpler the better.

So I thought I'd ask what's on your table? Jenny you should absolutely do a post on quick and delicious mom meals ( See Jenny's blog, KitchenWitch, link to the right).

Tonight we did bacon with farmers market vegetables, sun dried tomatoes and pasta.

Conversations With My Husband

Me " I'm thinking of starting an affair"

Husband "Why?"
Me " I'm pretty bored"
Husband " I wish you wouldn't"
Me" Well what should I do then?"
Husband" You could sell crack out of the back of the car"
Me " Oh! Okay"
pause
Me" But what about the affair?"
Husband " Well... I'm away enough you could just pretend to be having an affair with me"

Me" Okay, that seems like a good compromise"

Is it a bad night?

Is it a bad night because it's a bad night. Is it a bad night because things have changed? Is it a bad night because I am making it so or because it is so?
Things have been going really well, this has been our best carnie on tour trip yet, but tonight I was done, ready for a break. Did this cause the chaos or did the chaos cause this. Bedtime was a disaster on everybody's part. Was it me, was it them? Who knows.
Orange 1 and piggy share a room, Orange 1 asked for Piggy to share the room and loves it. I can't believe how much he loves Piggy. We have pictures of "the Daddy"taped to the wall and it helps. Every night before bed we say "night night daddy" and we give the picture a kiss and look at it for a while. In the day when the daddy calls we talk on speakerphone and tonight we had speakerphone chat with the daddy during bedtime. Orange 1 pretty much refuses to talk to him but he listens intently. During bedtime was a mistake. I hung up and the disaster that followed was so emotional. I found another picture of the daddy in a frame and asked if he wanted to hold it, he did. He fell asleep staring lovingly at the daddy picture and it broke my heart. I can fix a lot of things, I can be a lot of things, but I can't be the daddy, no matter how hard I try. There were some tears.

I didn't see that coming

Do you know that if you google just the right combination of beautiful and blog you get a lot of gay and lesbian porn-esk material. I have to say I didn't see that coming.

Piggy Pica

I feel like Piggy has that disorder where you can't stop eating things. I saw it once on Grey's Anatomy. Cheerios, raisins out of the heat grate, old shoes, bits of paper. Did I see this early on or has it become a self fulfilling prophesy?


NOTE: Yesterday we added bits of the shaggy carpet and pebbles to that list. 

Dear Husband

When you get home you owe me big time. I would like a never ending supply of wine, I repeat Never Ending, a day at the spa, perhaps some diamonds and maybe a pony. I shall not be getting up at 3am to play trains with the children, I shall not be taking out the trash or doing dishes. We will not watch "Deadliest Catch" or any other type of man show. We will watch "Say Yes to The Dress" and you will pretend to be interested in each and every dress. We will have girl talk. I would like to be a "lady of leisure" for at least a week.
love you
Wife

Orange 1

Today I looked at the tiny striped sock, then I touched it, then I smelled it's familiar scent. It made my heart ache and it was hard to breathe.

Dear Daddy

Dear Daddy,
Yesterday mama took us on an outing and we got new movies. Orange 1 fell asleep holding the one on trains and was very very happy. Mama was in a bad mood to start the day yesterday but then she put on the Bob Dylan Christmas album and it cheered her right up. She says if you don't come home soon she's going to break out all the Christmas stuff early this year. I think she likes Christmas. Today Orange 1 has gone to work at the baby factory, mama says he has to earn his keep.
I miss you and am getting tired of seeing this lady all the time.
Love Piggy

Sometimes it's what you have

Sometimes it's where you've been that counts

Naomi Claire Photography

True Confessions - Number 2

The carnie is still on the road so while he's away I thought I'd share some secrets involving him as well.
Last month the carnie was away for 18days in a row. While he was gone he said "go ahead and check my email so you can look at the next months work schedule" so I did.  Here is what I found:

He had emailed scheduling asking something or other and they replied. This was the first email from scheduling so I opened it (AS DIRECTED BY HIM)

Carnie " Greetings from xxxxx where the vodka is plentiful and the women are beautiful, until they turn 35 and some sort of switch flicks, blah blah blah scheduling, blah blah"

I was so M A D!! First of all he could have taken us on the road with him on an all expenses paid carnival tour, but didn't ask us to go. His response: "Uhhhh, I didn't think you'd want to go". Yeah cause I don't like hotels and restaurants, its just so taxing to not have to clean up or make meals.

So this was the kicker for me, I'm at home with 2 kids, they're loud, they're messy, he's eating at restaurants, sleeping through the night, eating freshly baked cookies, I bet the concierge fluffs his pillow for him!  PLUS he's drinking vodka and checking out all the ladies.

So I replied:
"THIS IS FROM YOUR WIFE
F Y I   Don't tell your wife she can check your email to look at the work schedule if it's going to include emails about you ogling women with your vodka goggles on. Glad to hear your enjoying the under 35 crowd. Less Than Impressed!!!!!"

I sent it to him and a few days later the carnie says to me " You know I think when you sent that to me you must have clicked reply all and also sent it to scheduling". (They thought it was so funny they forwarded it out to the entire office.)

Me (innocently)" Oh my I'm sorry about that"
True confession Number 2: I know how to send an email to a single user, I'm no dummy. I had to cut and paste that address in there. hahahahahaha. Now let that be lesson learned!

Dear Daddy

This morning I got up and woke up mama with a pat and a kiss. We're having cheerios and watching The Polar Express. The Christmas carols seem to make mama smile, she sings along, she's not very good but she tries, and I like the trains. I think one day I'd like to drive the train. Could you help me?

Yesterday I went on a date with my girlfriend K and I chased her with a stick and pushed her down to show her how much I love her. Then she had to go home and go to bed but I stayed and played a bit longer. Some new girls came, they had popsicles so I knew we were soul mates.  One of them had really curly hair and I gave her a hug and we chased each other up the slide, then I pushed her little sister down the slide to show her how much I love her. Shhh don't tell K.
Love you lots
Orange 1

Dear Daddy

Today I went on a date to the Y. I played with trains and another little curly haired boy. I jumped in a castle and got stuck in a tube. The little curly haired boy tried to help me out but mama had to come get me. I had a great time and then I came home and fell asleep in the middle of the floor while clutching my train. 2 is being good today, he liked watching me play, he got to lick some new toys and is now eating a book on tractors.
Love Orange 1

Today's post is brought to you by the letter F

F as in feeling, not as in bomb.

Last night we played another rousing game of musical beds. Piggy must be growing and is up every hour, Orange 1 is also having some trouble sleeping. We rotated from my bed, the nursing chair, O1's bed, back to my bed and so forth. But in the happy light of morning everyone is happy and frolicking, the coffee is hot and I'm grateful to have such happy little boys.

Lately when things are getting me down I have a rotating stream of words that give me a little sanity.

Kindness

Harmony

Peace

Love 

These are words that inspire me or I qualities I aspire to have. So today I say to you inspire and aspire. Try to inspire someone, your kids, a stranger, anyone  and aspire to do better. Do something wonderful with your kids, play ball in the park, go for a walk and watch the fall leaves change. It doesn't have to big big it just has to be meaningful to them. Share kindness, give something to charity, buy a cookie for someone on the street, put something in the food bank at the grocery store or share a smile with a stranger. Take it anyway you want but do something.

Today I will share kindness 

True Confessions

I'm thinking I'll try out something new, I'm calling it "True Confessions". Things you didn't know about me, probably don't need to know. I'll try to give a background story with them.

My brother-in law is getting married, so my soon to be sister in law is picking out wedding dresses (my favourite thing to do). I love wedding dress shopping, I love wedding planning, it's a once in a lifetime party. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I had the most beautiful wedding. We we're married by the ocean with 46 of our closest friends and family and I loved every minute of it. There was sand and ocean, a trio playing music, pristine white table cloths, white place settings and white covered chairs, sparkling clean glasses and tea lights glimmering along the path after dark. Everything I could have imagined. So here's my first confession:

I like to wear my veil around the house with my PJ's. I do it fairly frequently.

I have another one for later but I don't want to give away all my secrets so early in the day.

Dear Daddy

When you come home you'll find there have been some changes. Orange 1 is dating (it's K, he is in love), they hold hands and run in the park and I am starting college. I'm very smart and have decided to skip kindergarten and go straight to college. I've been embezzling funds from mama for a while now and I seem to be very good at it. My hostile takeover of the world has been temporarily put on hold to pursue these other interest. Mama is waiting patiently for you but is starting to look very old. Come home soon.
Love 2

Trivia and Giveaways

So if I can't be funny I can at least be fun. I was thinking about ways to increase audience participation (that's you), so I was thinking about doing a giveaway. No strings attached, just for fun. I'm going to put some more thought into it. I think something handmade, maybe by me, maybe by someone else. If you have something you'd like to feature here let me know, I'm totally into it. Stay tuned!


For today lets play trivia. I think something easy and girly to start. Can you name any of the bloopers from Pretty Woman? There's a bunch so if you watched it repetitively growing up, like me, this should be easy.

Isn't she lovely

Tulips

Next year I'd love to have a beautiful garden full full full of tulips. There's something so exciting to me about tulip blooms.

The travelling circus hits the road

My husband travels for work, a lot a lot. I don't really like to share personal details so for our purposes lets just say he's a carnie in the travelling circus. From now on I shall cease referring to him as "the felon" and now refer to him as "the carnie". More on this to follow. I just wanted you to know the change of names is now in effect.